#tic supression

[ticcy-worm]

Ok now my mom is implying i can get rid of my tics through thinking,,

(hint: if i could i would not be ticcing)

[twinktor-frankenstein]

I headcanon that the weird noises King Candy makes sometimes are him avoiding saying Turbo-Tastic

[dreamdropsystem]

it really is

[happyk44]

can someone please explain the difference between tourettes and tourettic ocd/tic-related ocd? because they both appear to be the same thing to me, just different onset of age. in which case, would they not just be the same and the age req for tourettes removed?

[riddlelily]

also i think there's a slight chance i might have tourette's. Funny. some years ago i wouldn't have considered my past psychiatrist's suspicion around it

[autistme]

having tics and not usually putting effort into hiding them but people still not acknowledging them being tics is so fucking wild to experience. like everyone clearly sees and hears them. but its like no one thinks they're potentially involuntary . like ppl just think im a silly guy that meows and clicks constantly. like i cant deny i will occasionally meow recreationally but like. theres so many other things i do constantly that i dont see how they could be interpreted as anything else. is it just tuned out from like constant exposure or what

[valcaira]

Look I get that we all want to relate to one another. I really do. But seeing people on my post about how shitty it is to exist as a visibly deformed & disabled person in public say things like "that's why i don't stim in public" or "that's why i'm scared to bring my cane in public" is just... You're missing the point.

Some of us cannot mask our disabilities. You can simply not stim if you can supress it in the first place. You can leave your cane at home if you're doing that already in the first place. A knee brace doesn't make you look like a "freak". You do appear abled otherwise.

I cannot. Many people I know cannot. I can't just "hide" my deformities and abnormal gait or convulsions to appear abled. I *need* my crutches everywhere I go. I can't supress my tics. Full-time wheelchair users exist. High support needs autistics exist. Schizospecs who cannot mask exist. People with William's Sydrome, Down's Syndrome and various obvious deformities exist. Little people. People with severe chemical burns or otherwise or scarring. People with Parkinson's, Tourette's, Huntington's, Cerebral Palsy, every disabled person who looks "abnormal".

We can't just "turn it off" like you. People WILL stare at us. Point their fingers at us. We have no power. They used to put us into freakshows. Not you. Not you who can hide your disability to "appear normal". That post was not for you to "relate to". I and many people are sick of many invisibly disabled people claiming they "want to look disabled" so they'd be "taken more seriously". It's not an invitation of you to declare you leaving your mobility aid at home or shit like that. It's not the damn same.

[disapunk]

i love yall tourettics who were a ''burden'' to deal with, the ones who got hit, yelled at, scolded because of their tics.

i love yall tourettics who sometimes or everyday, cant even hold a single cup of water, who theyre afraid of being near people because of hitting/agressive/offensive tics, i love yall tourettics who were made fun of, the ones who cant work, or do anything at all, youre not a burden, i promise.

the ones w coprophenomena.

the ones who need daily support with such ''basic and easy'' things like dressing up, eating, etc.

the ones who are stuck with people who do not understand them, or support them in any way.

the ones who simply just dont give a fuck about their tics, and they just keep ticcing, the ones who got taught to hide them, to supress them, the ones who unconsciously supress them!

anyone whos been treated badly because of their tics, to anyone who never got the help they needed, a diagnosis, support.

i love yall tourettics

im just thinking about how the community saved my ass, how the videos tourettic ppl made, and how little me watched them and stopped feeling alone, how i got a community, the support and help i needed because of you guys, i really love you all

[ifuckingloveshipping]

Goodbye

Arlecchino x the Shogun (the puppet)

I imagine that they have this weird situationship where there's no romantic or sexual stuff involved but they just fit so well together

it looks to be stricktly professional on the outside but it's not really that

when they're together Arlecchino feels comforted and safe, even

I also imagine that it breaks her heart when she finds out that Raiden is just a puppet. Arlecchino tries to connect with Ei since now she's overtaking the puppet's body but she just can't, there's no spark. ei is a completely different person and with Arlecchino being the only one who remembers "their" time together it's very awkward

Ei is taking over the puppet's body but there are still moments when it's just Raiden and Arlecchino hates to see those moments become shorter and shorter. it's like watching your loved one die

At some point the Knave allows herself to show some weakness and asks Ei for a favour : let Raiden control the puppet body for the whole day. Ei understands.

Arlechcino and Raiden spend the day as they normally do, as they normally did, mundane and boring stuff, so boring it's almost muscle memory at this point. Yet when the night falls and they're alone, in privacy of Raiden's, Ei's?, room, they crumble.

As the clock tics, counting down the last minutes of their happiness, making them painfully aware of how little time they have left together, they cling to each other like they never did before, did they ever hug?

Arlecchino places soft kisses on Raiden's hands, feeling her cold, hard skin, tracing her puppet-joints, how did she not notice before?

Raiden can't keep her eyes off of Arlecchino. She has looked at her before, but today is different, today, now, she isn't just looking at her, she's seeing her. It feels like she's discovered a whole new person who had been hiding behind multiple facades, The Knave, Father and even Arlecchino, none of them were her. No. Right now, in this very room, she's not with any of them. She's with Peruere.

With every tic of the clock, Peruere struggles to supress her tears. She grips Raiden's hands, no longer gentle, clinging, affraid to let her go because she will never come back again.

An hour later Ei regain control over the body. The room is empty, everything is in it's place and nothing new has appeared. The Knave is gone, as she promised. Ei reaches for the door, ready to start her day, when a soft metal-on-metal clinck is heard. She looks down on her arm and notices a black ring with a scarlet, half-moon shaped crystal on it wrapped around her ringfinger.

In Tatarasuna Ei watches over the ocean, the sound of Fatui agents working muffled by the roaring waves. She raises her hand clenched in a fist over the water. For a moment, her fingers are numb and she struggles to open her hand. But soon she does and the little silver rin falls out, immediately consumed by the waves.

She stands there and cries, knowing full well the tears falling from her eyes aren't her sorrow.

The End.

OH MY LORD. How did this become a fanfic. how do I keep doing this ??? it was supposed to be a short headcanon not- not THIS

my first angst fic ig?? hope ya'll like it <3

[stormratyaps]

Been having a lot of tics at night, and I was lying next to my friend trying not to wake her up so trying to supress my tics, and then it suddenly hit me how hilarious it is that I was there in the middle of the night doing the utmost to stop myself from shouting GOODMORNING in my sleeping friends ear

[write-behind-you]

Spy opened his mouth to respond before wincing at the glass noise. The screeching, however, got him, as well as the noise of the glass hitting the ground.

He took a few steps back to avoid getting coffee on his shoes and to ground himself. His head twitched ever so slightly, and he instead gave an intense shiver. He rolled his shoulders back and straightened his spine. He would be fine.

He was too busy normalizing his own behavior to even process the Chemist's apologies, or be concerned about its current validity. They could worry about it when they were both back to their best.

(@write-behind-you)

The Spy looked the Chemist up and down skeptically. "Are you new here?" He asked, just a bit condescendingly.

Chemist turns around at the sound of a voice. They're holding a beaker full of what looks to be coffee. They take a sip before answering.

"Yeah. New recruit," They waved their hand vaguely, "Something about stalemates, and needing more....uhhhh..."

They paused, eyebrows scrunching up, "God, what's the word again? Power? Uhh...fuck," They hissed the last part out with a defeated sigh.

"Whatever. Point is, yeah, I'm new!"

[oriborealis]

Tourettes things is also staying off school as soon as exams are over because constantly supressing my tics is causing severe tic attacks and now i'm banned from the kitchen (only half joking, my head still hurts from where i hit it with the can of beans)

[soft-healing-space]

My experience with diagnosis:

I always knew smth was off... I was the weird one no matter where I went... I had a rly rly hard time... The first time it got rly noticable was when my mom drove me to the psych ward to drop me of there after "an incident"...

To be fair I had a not ideal upbringing... A history of depressive episodes... Issues with $elfthurting behaviours... Long lasting dissociative states... The list of symtoms are endless... But...

I had no words to express whats going on... There was just intense shame and fear... I tryed to hide it the best I can...

After years of pointless therapy I felt so frustrated not being able to express myself I started doing research... That went on for over 5 years of my life untill I understood whats going on...

So after all those years... Finally having an answer... I still felt like an imposter... So I went to various docs... Got brain scans donne... Howers of talking and filling out papers... In the end diagnosed me with exactly what I had found thru my research...

So what do we learn from that?

1.) Reach out for help! If u are suffering u dont have to hide! I know how hard this can be but suffering in silence is not the answer...

2.) After years of research... Self reflection... Sneaking in qwestions here and there to get my familys and friends fews on it... I can say self diagnosis is valid... But u have to be thurrow in your research... (And then reach out for help if its accessible!)

3.) Education and self awareness are important! And probably saved my life...

4.) Trust your own experience and instincts if u feel smth is off don't let people invalidate u just because u have learnt to mask it so well...

For more context:

I have 2 personality disorders (avoidant and borderline) + a mood disorder + an anxiety disorder + a tic disorder

My avoidant personality and my quiet bpd still have me hiding and supressing and pretending its okey every day... But just knowing why things are like they are and things feel like they feel helps a lot in treating myself with the kindness I deserve...

I know there is so much fear and guilt and shame inside... We think masking it is easyer... Lets not make people worry... We can deal with it... Nuhu... Reach out for help... Even if they don't listen... It took me 8 years from my first therapist to my actual diagnosis...

We deserve better then that!

Track your symtoms!

Do your research!

Find someone who cares!

Find someone you can afford!

And demand the help that you deserve...

[pinkprettycure]

u might wonder why if diana can do it why doesn't amber bother to supress her verbal tic and to that i say if diana focused on important things instead of stopping herself from meowing she might be better at teleporting

[a-3x]

RANT

Yall i have no idea what to do rn. My dr who ive been seeing since i moved here three years ago is pretty much in denial that i have tourettes. Like she acknowledges i have tics, even though i supress them around her (she makes me extremely uncomfortable) but she’s persistent on the fact that my tics are due to my mental health and not a neurological condition LIKE NIGGA BFFR. ive had two eegs done over the years (before i moved down here) and both of them caught abnormal brain waves. Plus my neurologist i had said i had tourettes. Like wtf does she want. Im literally writing her a whole ass essay on why i have tourettes and not whatever tf she thinks i have. If this doesnt work im putting together an entire doc for her. Im fed up with her bs and not believing me.

[affa9262]

hmmmmm

I thought I just had a tic

I'm not convinced this is what's happening but something to look into

I can supress it when I feel the urge to twitch/spasm but it bothers me until I do it and if I bring it on on purpose it actually helps when I'm feeling restless

if it is this, I get to add two new conditions to my list in one week god fucking damn